Old Memories...

I frequently listen to old voice mail messages that Jimmy has left me so I can hear his voice... and sometimes I look at old text messages from him since we haven't been able to communicate in so long. Today on my Facebook I looked at a bunch of old love letters he sent me. WOW. I thought it may turn me into a puddle but to my surprise it didn't! It cheered me up even! It gets so lonely writing letters never hearing from him. Seeing all of those old memories was a good reminder of why he's worth the wait. I love him, and I know he loves me... so that's good enough reason for me to wait by the phone. I'm glad I didn't delete all of them sweet little notes he wrote, they made my day today! My advice, hold on to love notes, voice mails, messages... they sure do come in handy on days when it feels like forever since you've talked! Missin him more everyday <3

3 1/2 weeks into our first deployment

Typing "3 1/2 weeks into this is" the easiest part... getting this far has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I keep a journal to write to my fiancé each night and it helps me feel like I still get to tell him all about my days but I get no response, that's where I thought this blog would come in handy! I haven't heard from my sailor in about 2 weeks and even then it was an email from underway. I feel lost! He's my best friend and without him my life isn't the same at all. When he first left I think I was so confused and didn't know what to expect, I was also in denial in a way. I cried a lot, and would talk to anyone that'd listen. Now I find it a tiny bit easier to mask my sadness and keep the tears behind closed doors. Besides the journal I also write letters to send to Jimmy and last night I wrote him a nice long one telling him I was going to find a new hobby so this is it! I also find myself looking for new navy wife friends more these days since I will be one soon myself. It takes a special kind of person to do what our significant others do for this country and it takes a special somebody to standby them, I know I'm strong but without a little support I know these deployments will drive me nuts! I think this is a great outlet for support and meeting more people, hopefully I'm right. I'm still trying to figure out the ins and outs of this web page thing and so any helpful tips would be much appreciated. Well, I'm off to find some "followers" and become a follower to other Military wives pages :-)

First Post

Well, I started/ tried to start this blog a while back when I was headed to Connecticut to visit my fiancé. He's now on his first deployment and it's a struggle so I figured trying to start this out and sharing my thoughts and making new friends that understand my situation will help me get through this. I hope to add pictures and keep updating this to stay busy and also so that my love has something to look at when he gets home :)