I've been expecting a call soon but really had no clue how long I'd have to wait for it... this morning at 7:41am I heard my baby's voice on the other end of the line!!!!! Deployment is an ugly, scary thing and if I've learned anything this far it's that no matter how hard it gets I will and can not give up. Every night I crawl in my bed knowing I've made it through yet another day and I am another day closer to seeing him again. Our phone call wasn't ALL peachy, he dicussed some not so fantastic news. He has an opportunity to go to dive school when he gets back from deployment but this means we may not be able to get married when we wanted and it also means another 6 weeks that I wont be able to be with him :( I am trying to find something in my mind or heart that'll help me stay positive and be happy that he's been offerred this opportunity but it's so hard to be happy about something that may affect our getting married and that'll keep me away from him even longer. Jimmy is my life, he is what I think about ALL DAY everyday and I'm ready to have him back, I just wish the end of this deployment was sooner than it is. All in all I am ever so grateful that I finally heard "I love you so much" from him, wow... I've missed that like crazy! I'm so thankful he is as strong and courageous as he is. I can't wait to hear from him again and I hope it's soon!
You've got my support girl..I am currently going through a long deployment with my Sailor as well. It's only been a month, and I must say it seems to get easier but I have my moments when I break down and just wanna stay in bed and cry because I miss him so much. :(
ReplyDeleteI hear you there! Somedays I wake up with this "Deployment can't break me" attitude and by the end of the day I'm in tears looking at our pictures and praying for an email or SOMETHING. We've made it over 6 weeks so far and I think this is the hardest thing I've ever done but I'm so thankful for how strong it's making the bond between us. It's so great to meet other Navy or Military spouses... They just seem to understand things differently. I love my family and friends and some of them are so supportive but sometimes the support of a stranger who knows how you feel is more comforting :)
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