Ups and Downs of Deployment

Like I wrote in the previous post, Jimmy finally called (for the first time in way too long) and ever since my mood has been up and down. First I was so happy I cried, then when hours passed before our next phone call I started getting upset and feeling weird. He then had duty and I didn't know so about a day and a half had passed before we talked again... my mind was all over! Finally we got a while to catch up, we even had a skype date! It was so crazy good to see him again :) I stayed up all night talking to him, it was beyond wonderful! After that there was more lonely hours before we could talk again... and again, my mind was all over.

We have talked, cleared things up, talked about things that have went on since he left... and all is well but wow! I never imagined him being in port while on deployment would mean another adjustment! I've loved being able to talk to him but it's like I have to get used to it or something. I don't know. I just started "getting used" to not hearing from him for so long so now that he's been able to call here and there I find myself living for the calls and in between them I struggle :-/

I suppose this mean once he goes back underway I'll have to adjust to that all over again. Deployment is insane, it does crazy stuff to your mind and I hate it. I can't wait until my baby is back, and we can finally start our lives together in California.

P.S. My prayers and thoughts go out to all in Japan. I've seen news clips, been looking on the internet and I don't think I can really even understand what this all means. It's so sad and scary, I feel awful that so many people have lost loved ones and are having to go through all this :( The whole thing is just so much to take in that it's going to take a while.

Until next time <3